Resplendent At Dawn

By Amber N. Persaud

My life has come with many struggles, but throughout all of them, the cold blue of the morning has always brought comfort. This is my way of sharing said comfort with you.

The brightness of daybreak shows against the open blinds,
The sun has not yet risen and the cold blue surrounds me,

In most cases, blue is associated with sadness, 
But right now,
while the world is still asleep and I hear the faint cries of the birds and wind, 
I feel glee.

At this moment, for the first and last time for that day,
I will feel free and unattached to any negatives from the day prior.

At this moment, 
I will open up a window and take a breath of fresh air 
that takes me to a place like no other.

In which my head is filled with nothing but, well, nothing. 
In times like these, 
it feels like bliss and a blessing to have nothing on my mind. 

Of course, the feeling will fade as it did the morning prior, 
and before that. 

But I shall not worry about that now. 
I'll sulk in the feeling, 
lay back down into the warmth of last night's struggles, and close my eyes. 

And as the morning fades and the blue finally dissipates, 
I'll begin mourning the feeling,
And chasing the high that was.

Process

When writing this poem I was going through a bit of a difficult time. I had lost motivation in school and my hobbies and was dealing with some internal struggles. The only class that piqued my interest at the time was English and it just so happened to be a poetry day. During class, we were instructed to create a poem that was inspired by Amanda Gorman’s “The Miracle of Morning.” Her poem, from what I gathered, is about finding brightness, courage, and gratitude in small gestures seen all around us. My mind was immediately driven to the way I was feeling just earlier. I started off my poem thinking about what I first saw and felt when I woke up after a particularly difficult night. And when I started to think about how Gorman had used the simple details around her to create happiness I began to reflect on why exactly I felt at peace after all that had gone on the night before. And after going through a three-month long writer’s block, the words had flown out as if they had been hiding in my head all along. And being able to express the emotions I was feeling in a positive way had healed me of all the negatives holding me back at the moment.