I Am Your Vision
By Sienna Lipton
A poem about the internalized male gaze that verbalizes the ways it affects my thinking and everyday life.
Beat me Slam me into the table Work me with your rough hands, over and over I am clay to be shaped Every part to your preference Mold me until I am exactly what you envisioned Until I know how to be exactly what you envisioned I live for you I play my role for you When you are satisfied I am fulfilled And without you I am nothing I am here for your convenience You are the fiber of my very being I must extract it carefully What you’ve intricately weaved into the essence of who I am I do not have problems for you to preoccupy yourself with I don’t ask you to confront your moral ambiguities I am silent, pleasing to the eye And in return you give me praise, The greatest drug Will I ever be free
This piece actually began pretty informally. I was feeling inspired and wrote a few lines in my Notes app and expanded the piece from there. I tried to think of the best ways to write and explain what I was feeling in hopes the reader would end up feeling that way too. It went through a few changes, but I’m very happy with the final product!
Sienna Lipton is a high school sophomore in Bronx, NY. She is a diabetic with a strong love for candy. Sienna enjoys reading, drawing, listening to music and baking.